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Wednesday, February 5th, 2014
9:11 am - Stupid bugs.
I'm really bad at being sick. Which is odd, considering how many colds and sundry stuff I've had over the years. You'd think that much practice would make dang close to perfect.

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Thursday, January 23rd, 2014
3:03 pm - Alas, if I but could.
Sometimes people need a bit of a scolding. They get thoughtless and stupid, and it jumps right to hurtful and hateful without a pause or even recognition, and goes on to reinforce the assumptions and brainwashing that led to the trouble to begin with. So when I can get away with it, and when I can't stand it any more, I point it out as firmly-yet-gently as my poor head can manage.

I say "when I can get away with it" because this here Open Book is the only open book I have. Everything else has some slight filter or color adjustment (meaning a character format, to continue the metaphor), and it is not politically useful to tell the whole truth.

I really wish I could add, "So stop being such a brainless, hateful bigot. You embarrass Thought itself."

But I can't.

[Addendum: Hm, sometimes one or two do manage to notice that they exemplify the behavior! Color me surprised! Some promise of a future at last. Some. Still not telling them about this place, and the whole truth of the matter. I'm not quite that crazy yet.]

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Wednesday, January 8th, 2014
10:43 am - Is this thing on?
Hi, everyone! Yeah, I'm still here. Just haven't had anything to say worth reading, it would seem. But I'm glad you're still writing. Thought you should know.

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Tuesday, December 17th, 2013
8:05 am - Resetting Goals
So at the beginning of this year I mentioned some goals I have. How did I do? Not real well, actually. Aside from a continuous stream of things apparently designed to keep me from getting anywhere with them, my attempts were more or less a series of lessons on how not to go about things.

What I did manage, however, was to understand much more clearly the way to prepare a mind for change. I also laid the groundwork for the goals by doing some preparatory projects I had no idea needed doing. So there is that.

Now (meaning, as of this morning) I jump back in, to get the things actually done this time.

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Monday, November 25th, 2013
10:39 am - Still Here. Sort of.
I'm not quite dead yet.

People sometimes ask me how things are going. One of these days I'll stop and look around to find out. In the mean time, the certain thing is that they are going.

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Thursday, October 17th, 2013
11:06 am - Spin, hamsters, spin!
Oh God. If people knew how much I laugh... I say I'm not laughing at them, I'm merely laughing in their direction. We share a wink.

When public discourse looks mostly like folks trying to convince themselves of what is obviously untrue... lordy. Yes, I laugh for joy, I laugh the cosmic laugh of the hilarity of the universe and its absurd, adorable inhabitants, I laugh because laughter is more or less what I am. But some days, I laugh because people are just so absurd, trying so damned hard to keep their house of cards standing and looking like a castle, keeping the ego strokes flowing even if they have to do it themselves, talking themselves into all sorts of nonsense, whirring away in their wheel.

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Wednesday, October 2nd, 2013
10:27 am - Cheery Mysteries
I have lots and lots of reasons to be in a bad mood.

I am in a very good mood.

Not sure of the wisdom in questioning this, but if I can figure out how to do it on purpose, it'd be a really handy thing.

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Monday, September 30th, 2013
1:46 pm - Scalpel Technique
It would appear that I have honed my skill for cruel diplomacy to an edge able to deliver undiluted contempt and be more or less thanked for it.

There is probably a good use for this aside from diverting an urge to pound idiocy into jelly with rhetoric-coated truth, but I haven't found it just yet.

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Friday, September 27th, 2013
3:42 pm - Back from the beach...
...and off to the mountains. I swear I'll actually put up some pictures again soon. Ish.

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Wednesday, September 18th, 2013
12:19 pm - Vacation!
Something I look forward to each fall is a week or so at a beach house with the family. I won't be able to be there the whole time, but a few days away from my insane life seems like a nice notion. Might even come back with some new music, who knows?

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Saturday, September 7th, 2013
11:08 pm - Knife's Edge
So, all these forces playing against each other collide, and I'm tottering on an emotional balancing point. "Knife's edge" might be dramatically useful but really is a simplification. Could fall in a number of directions: emotional stuff as simple as a song or a Dr. Who episode (for crying out loud) makes me quite maudlin; a clear notion of things makes me angry, hot or cold by turns; I broke my toe in the process of doing good things today, ending the day's usefulness pretty much, and if I think about it, the mood becomes fatalistic; my painkiller for all of the above is a trio of high-octane margaritas, and it makes me tired; the usual pleasantries of life keep me laughing, as I seem to have a bouyancy that makes me wonder if I'm related to the Spirit of Christmas Present; oh, and my sex life is that of an occasionally naughty monk, explaining the anger above but also driving me to do something useful, pushing through the pains, to make myself better. Hey, best revenge and all that. Maybe it sounds pathetic, but when I'm drowning in crap, self-improvement really does seem like a reasonable course of action. Is it going to do me any good, in the short or long run? Not a clue. Probably not. But my philosophy is objective enough (funny for a mystic, no?) to use it in either a positive or negative light.

In any case, I seem to be directed minute by minute by a game spinner, and whatever I land on is what I am.

Hey, at least there's the next minute. Could land on Laugh.

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Thursday, September 5th, 2013
2:29 pm - Spoke Too Soon
At this moment, I appear to have been wrong on two points:

1. Looks like the war might not be called off after all. Related: Rumors of some mid-east nations offering to pay the bill for us if we attack Syria. Reports of al Quaeda attacking Syrian Christian villages.
2. Assad may not have used chemical weapons on his own people. Related: Suggestions that the "rebels" accidentally set them off on themselves.

So things are deeply confused and complicated, the usual for the region. SNAFU. I still don't see any way for this to go well, even if we manage to avoid half-measures and either go big or go home... either of which are certainly possible. Why do I not have/voice/preach an opinion on what to do? I know when I'm out of my depth. It'd be handy if (a) our putative representatives did, and (b) we got more representation that had a damn clue to begin with. But that last might involve lots of people not reflexively voting for their habitual party, so I don't see it happening, either.

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Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013
8:04 am - Consistency
Research has concluded that the big anti-war movement in the U.S. was actually just anti-Republican. Which most Americans knew when it was in full rah-rah mode. Thus the streetcorners now empty of protests as we careen into the most nonsensical war in who knows how long. The closer you look at the causes, goals, potential cost (in all metrics), surrounding politics, etc, the less sense it makes, even less than other wars, which rarely make much sense on the objective level. Yet I've seen a total of 3 protesters regarding this where I used to see dozens, and all 3 were on the same corner on the same day. Singular. It's like everything they'd been saying suddenly didn't matter.

Not that you didn't know this already. The faintest whiff of intellectual honesty makes it plain as day. I just wanted to mention that the vanishing protesters aren't being inconsistent. Not really, aside from apparently not actually meaning some of their slogans. The rest still hold. They just had nothing to do with objecting to war.

So why have lefties not been replaced by righties in the sign-waving department? A few possible reasons come to mind, and I really don't know what the correct one would be. Each is provocative in its own way. When research comes out on that side of things, I'll link it here, too.

On the other hand - and this might be a form of consistency I am new to - at this point the war itself seems to have been called off, in a sudden reversal of clear intent. Could an anti-war movement have actually succeeded without causing traffic jams? What would that do to future sign-wavers? Are they the same people objecting in a better way, or different people objecting in their own way? Stay tuned.

Addendum: I should probably clarify that, whereas Assad is an evil of the first order who has used chemical weapons on his own people and targeted children for torture, rape, and murder, his opponents, who originally were simply fighting against his horrifying "security" forces, are now backed by the same joyful company who does all that and worse in the name of Allah in many other places. Many details of the impossibility of making things right can be found here, which is an excellent overview. I make no suggestions as to what to do; I merely point out consistency, or lack thereof, in Americans.

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Thursday, August 29th, 2013
9:29 am - Very silly stuff.
You have to see this. The article is full of obvious. The comments are full of stupid.

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Monday, August 26th, 2013
1:31 pm - Total Blank
Well, crap. I had a great idea for an article but forgot what it was the moment I got near the keyboard again. Arrrrrrgh

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Thursday, August 22nd, 2013
12:03 pm - Oddly Misnamed
Funny how much of Upworthy is Unworthy.

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Thursday, August 15th, 2013
12:43 pm - Double plus ugh.
The sheer volume of Absolutely Blind Fucking Stupid I have to deal with today is breathtaking.

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11:00 am - Ugh.
The biggest nuisance in getting fit is getting used to being hungry. Not real hunger, just that nagging, annoying edge of it that accompanies trending down the input. Having a genetic tendency to hypoglycemia makes my blood sugar a bit wobbly, too, which amplifies the thing and gives all kinds of excuses to give in to whatever craving comes along. And the cravings are annoyingly specific. Protein, I understand. I'm giving things clear signals to build, and so it sort of makes sense that visions of steak, hummus, salmon, or cheese start dancing in my head now and then. The pointless urge for a muffin now and then is more of a nuisance, especially since I know I'll feel horribly blah afterward if I do.

I mention this because I'm craving a giant burger just now. And a whole avocado. Though frankly, discussing it hasn't lessen the desire in the slightest.

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Thursday, July 25th, 2013
6:04 pm - No, I'm not going to explain.
As I observe the progress of society, I see that there are a few phrases that will shortly be wreaking all sorts of havoc, giving my cynical side no end amusement:

sexual fluidity
apex fallacy
cognitive dissonance

The last one, of course, is what will convert the others from epiphany to hilarity.

Biological plausibility more or less hit the fan recently, though frankly that was the tip of the iceberg.

I have no intention of explaining any of this, outside of it having to do with proverbial chickens coming home to roost, but remember: you heard it here first.

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Tuesday, June 18th, 2013
3:35 pm - Sad, really.
Tolerance: A virtue to claim in one's self, but in practice require only in others.

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